Saturday, July 16, 2011
How will this all end?
So how will this all end? We are right smack in the middle of this with no end in sight. John's been saying it's like we are lost in a forest without any idea of which direction to go in or how far it is to get unlost. So how does this all end? When does my little girl heal up? When does she start to eat? What happens when she starts? Does it go smoothly? Is it rocky? Just how long til she's home? When she gets here, how will it all go? Is she going to be a "normal" baby or will she struggle to eat, to put on weight, to keep things down? I wish so much I had just the tiniest of foresight on how this all ends. Maybe then this whole thing would be easier to deal with...knowing there was indeed an end in sight. But right now I am so lost, every tree looks the same, the edge of the forest is a 100 miles away if it's a foot. And I'm weak and wounded and hungry and weary and I have no idea how I can move an inch much less the long journey that is ahead of me.