No more naps for me

I am not a nap girl. It takes me forever to fall asleep and when I do, I wake up with a stomach ache that lasts all day long and takes away my appetite for hours, which inevitably means I feel worse afterwards than I did before hand. It has always been this way for as long as I have tried to embark on the nap-train. It's something I've not accepted, I've lived. I really have almost no desire at all to ever take a nap. I know I'm going to feel awful afterwards, so the desire is never there. Even when you have that after lunch sleepiness where all you can do is yawn, I don't want to take a nap. What I want to do is take a walk and clear my head.

Yesterday I "indulged" (or maybe I should say tortured myself?) with a nap. For some reason I decided to do it. I fell asleep easily and slept for an hour. It felt nice. Although I woke up with a stomach ache and pretty much felt like crap for the rest of the day, but I expected that, right? What I didn't expect was not being able to fall asleep last night until after 12:30. To put things in perspective, John and I are very very strict on our bedtimes-10 pm and we are in bed. We almost never deviate from it, even when going out, and being a recovering insomniac who dealt with insomnia for a year, and debilitating at that for about 3 months, I will always choose to go to bed on time over anything else. Movie, going out, friends, nothing is more important to me at 10 pm than going to sleep. In addition John and I are dead to the world by 10:30, no later. I am lucky to be able to fall asleep extremely quickly, taking less than 5 minutes, and probably closer to 2. So last night was a bitch. I know myself and I know that if it takes me more than 10 minutes to fall asleep, sleep isn't coming for a while. I know what it's like to be awake in the middle of the night-that's my insomnia. But I am not familiar with not being able to fall asleep. So it is very uncomfortable to me. I don't like it. Even though I was anxious last night, it wasn't horrible, but it did suck that I laid in bed for 2.5 hours before I could fall asleep. So...bottom line. No more naps for me. My saving grace is that I only got 6 hours of sleep last night (normal is always 8) so I know that I'll fall asleep quickly tonight. However, I'll also probably be tempted to take another nap. Hopefully I can ward off that after lunch sleepiness and force myself to stay awake.