Hypocritical or maybe just spontaneous without thought

So I've talked about going green and all this green stuff off and on for a while now. I will be honest. My main motivation with it, is saving money. For better or worse, I was raised in a household where both my parents grew up without a lot of extra. It affected them and their parenting and so even though we always had enough money, we were very "frugal". We bought probably half of our clothes from Goodwill, we saved every single scrap of leftovers to eat later, we didn't go out to eat much, we didn't travel much, and my parents reused or saved as much as they thought might ever have value. As a result, this is stuck in my head. I make my husband pour coffee into the empty cream container to get the absolute last drop of creamer out. I feel incredibly frustrated with myself when I throw away food. And I have some sort of limit in my head on almost every single product a consumer could buy and sometimes I simply cannot force myself to pay a certain amount for something, even though most of the world finds that price acceptable

Anyway, my point in all of this is to illustrate how "frugal" (insert cheap, anal or obsessive here as well if you feel it is appropriate) I am. So like I said, that quote from my friend Catherine about using what we have or doing without has really affected me. I can't stop thinking about it for a lot of different things. One example is that the spout on our hose got chew up by Winnie last summer. You know the spray one that has all the different settings-mist, jet, etc. So far this season, I've been watering my garden by placing my finger over the hole to get the flow to shoot out more of a mist. This is not an easy task, but I'm doing with what I have. I was determined not to buy a new spout. What I was doing worked just fine. Yesterday we were at Walmart and what did I buy? A new spout for the hose. I also bought a bag of dog treats. This annoys me because I have a recipe for homemade dog biscuits, which are super easy and super affordable, and yet instead of taking the time to make them I bought them. That really frustrates me. And I try and justify it in my head, but then I get real with myself and say "Yeah, that was wasteful". I'm sure me making dog treats at home is a LOT more environmentally friendly than buying them. Just in the chemicals, how much less energy I use, and perhaps even if my ingredients are more friendly than those used in the factory.

Anyway, I see these discrepancies all the time in myself. I'm hoping that now that I'm home with Anne (for now at least) I can start to tackle some of these and become even more frugal, more "green" and hopefully more real.